February 11th, 2016 1:47 AM
MIDNIGHT
A lot has happened since the last one, new semester, which means new teachers. It’s only been 3 weeks but so far this class seems like it’s gonna be light work. I have gym now, something that I absolutely DESPISED. But now I love it, its a good way to get exercise. My calves were pretty big before but now they’re really defined.
Not sure if I wrote about Jadyn, but she’s this Laos girl that’s really pretty, and she’s pretty chill. Christy is good friends with her and told Jadyn that I liked her. Things got awkward for a few days but its all good now.
My boy William has been streaming on younow and chatting up younger girls. Most of the people at school are giving him a rough time for it, but I don’t mind. If that’s what he wants to do, let him do it. He’s trying to live his dream so why would I stop him from doing so. He seems to be happy with what he’s doing but I hope it doesn’t get to his head. Recently he unfollowed a large sum of people on Instagram, not me though I’m the best of course. These people started bothering him about it. He seems to think that if he wasn’t “famous” or whatever, no one would notice. I’ve actually shown up to a couple of his streams and I just say stupid crap, surprised he hasn’t blocked me yet. I met this Lia girl who’s kinda cute and we’ve been talking a little. She’s from Vermont and she’s Cantonese. She was adopted by white people and she seems nice so far.
For some people I’m talking about, I have to describe them unlike the other people who I know I will never forget about.
Ye renamed his album, and the name is retarded. How this man go from “So Help Me God” to “The Story Of Pablo”. Like the hell he smoking? Just hoping that this name change won’t hinder my thoughts on the actual music of the album. It’s the 11th and he’s debuting Yeezy Season 3 and the album tomorrow. I was supposed to go with Tylen and Alberto. But they decided to wait last minute to ask their parents to go when they had about a whole week. So I’m not sure if they’re going at all. At this moment Kanye is someone I model myself to be. His over confidence and arrogance is something I wish I had. I may view him differently later in time, but for now he is my inspiration and role model.
Damn I need sleep, its been an hour since I’ve written everything thing above. I was reading through old text I had with Lauren. Throughout the 8th grade year all she ever was to me was nice and I appreciate that from her. Reading back, I can some more changes. I’m more vocal and expressive now. Confidence is something I actually have now. Music has played a role in this. I went from listening to dance music, it would get my adrenaline up and get my all excited to do something. Then I decided to download Big Sean’s album and got into hip-hop. Music that was way more relatable, probably since it actually had words. As of now, I feel like I’m the best version of myself so far. I don’t get all emotional about girls or stupid crap anymore. I haven’t gotten overly stressed that often over school work. High-school dress code allows me to express myself, what you wear can define your character and how you carry your self at times. I have most of what I want right now. I’m doing more then just playing games all day. But something I’ve always been is self-conscious and self aware. I’ve started actually paying attention to how I walk, talk, look. I’m pretty happy, but it isn’t like I’ve ever been depressed. The only thing that I had back then that I don’t have now is a proper sleep schedule.
